To Depression with Love

Depression secretly loved Suicide,

every day he would sigh and pine

for her quick slicing, painful touch,

but she never saw the rhyme

floating casually through the haze

of his dark, hungry scented gaze.

Suicide was in her own world,

leaping from building's tall ways

in her mind's soft blue clouds,

falling in Love's splattered days,

but he just looked through her heart,

never noticing her lips gently part.

Agony was killing Depression,

Suicide vowed to take Love's life

while Love sang songs of hope

to the warm night's starry-eyed strife

at missing the light of the dawn

by just a single moment's yawn.

　

Suicide undressed with shyness,

Depression submerged his head

under the fragrant foam, hoping

for the much longed for escape.

She quickly took off her panties

and pulled Depression up

from the depths of the water,

holding him close, feeling

his scarred skin rub her mood.

Suddenly Depression brightened,

he pulled Suicide down,

laughed as her head hit bubbles.

She spat a grin out and kissed him

passionately, her heart beating

promises of love; until death do part.

　

Depression smiled as Suicide blushed

her love across the ripples of gloom;

saturating the room's fragrant smiles.

Suicide caught hold of Depression's grin

as he dropped to one knee with a sigh;

fluttering through the candle's soft flames.

With a voice clear yet full of sorrow's wisps

Depression asked for Suicide's sweet hand,

hearts merged inside of cool nervousness.

The song of delight sprung from their souls

as Suicide's answer echoed off old scars,

Yes - the note was pure brilliant white light.

Musings

Pause. Breathe. Halt. These are perhaps the most belated words in the human vocab. Well, atleast mine. Its clockwork. To run. Am forever chasing, what I like to think, are cobwebs. You see I, like most thrill-seeking folk who believe they are alternative citizens, believe in keeping life complicated. Its a completely different matter that spiders weave straight lines.

Anyway, its monsoon. Its Mumbai monsoon and its supposed to have created a clutter of chaos. And there is that much more urgency to fight for time to weave my web. But today time waited for me.

I walked. I like to walk. It was my absolute favourite thing to do back home. You see, I'm a small town girl. I had no cobwebs to weave back then, my life was plotted in sectors. But I took the occasional long stroll back home, something that was alternative in the hamlet-ghost town.

Here I'm a rootless tree. Challenged to walk mindlessly anywhere, to any corner without question or direction. You see, in Mumbai, every image even resting in the corner of your eye, inspires. This is the city acid flashbacks are made of. These are the colours that spirals in a cokehead. These are the musings of an lost artiste.

Today I walked. I didn't wait for the cab to take me home. The highway, the whizzing cars, the irritable lot stuck in traffic, the conjunctions of chaos stuck in my head quitened. White noise. I wasted time.

The milk stop, the soul street, the dazzling sign boards, the vegetated lush green of wet earth, the cottage-roofed homes - I saw the city transition to smiling faces instead of cluttered conduits of frowned pollutants.

Itd been a while. I'd been watching life passing by like a back seat driver. Collecting used and dampened match sticks in flip flops at a rain thrashed drizzling dusk. Chasing fire flies in the muddy vegetation off a polluted side-walk. Their abode hides the grime of the metropolitan, tales etched into the memory of the concrete beneath the soles of the walking denizens - narratives of the obdurate elves who pretend to live and work in the expansive cloak of what could be their motherland but is their relative land.

Passing a shop window, I caught a reflection. Glee rested in my eyes. I sensed happiness.

So this is to you Mumbai. I've loved you, hated you, gotten to know you better. You've found me, accepted me, changed me, made me a family, broken me, abandoned me, homed me and given this spider a space for her cluttered cobweb. You let me know its ok to be different and its ok to be like everyone else. You've freed my soul, like a helium baloon, keeping my extended string tied to the displaced ground. I keep losing the shifting focal point now and then, but you leave me directions by my bedside.

So thank you lover. Now back to the many more straight lines I must weave.