Friday, November 24, 2006

My Con of Chaos

Convulated! Just that . . . that one word. The chaos in my mind. . . the drum rolls in my head. The constant irking and foreplay with stimulating fantasies ... dreams ... ideas ... thoughts.

Thoughts! Just that . . . that one word. The solemn solitude I romance every now and then. My partner-in-crime, at my aid and destruction always. The consistent ticking of words ... sentences ... phrases ... an outpour of feelings.

Feelings! Just that . . . that one word. The times I've spent in quite contemplation of the things that have hurt me, touched me, raped me, seduced me. Exhausted ... I've been subect to the naked attack of word-less emotions, always at my beck and call always. Always ...
Always! Just that . . . that one word. Always the need to bigger than myself. Will I rise above? Will I stay afloat and not sink? Will I ever find out?

3 comments:

dRoZzY!!! said...

that was quiet a heavy post... you also use the blog to dump your heart in here...

hey, i really like the reducing font size @ the end... that was an amazing idea... i hope it didn't happen by chance :)

Zedekiah said...

well was a 'chance,' but sometimes serenditpity too mixes well right??? thanks for dropping by!

Nothingman said...

Cheers to that!

I say if you want to find yourself you gotta first lose yourself.

Keep Rocking!